My 27th Birthday!!!!!
Now is 2:36am morning and I am now on duty in the station. Guess what?..I just found Jolin's Blog link (http://www.supermars.com/stars/blog/jolin/list.jsp). Haha. I had finished browsing her blog which consist only 23 entries for the time being. Think she ahd just start this blog to keep in touch with her fans. I love to read others blog because from their entries, i can see the world especially when it contains pictures that they took during tour. I like to travel around sight-seeing. But i can't do it as i am a very poor chap. Not much saving even after a few years of work (who ask me to keep job hop so much). My wish is to visit Japan and try their food and "Wen Quan" (What is call in English huh?..Forget liao..haha). But as you all know how expensive it is to travel in Japan. Anyway, all I can do now is to save up bit by bit and travel to other country first. Then when i save enough for Japan, then I will fly there. My next destination will be Taiwan. Most probably will be going there during March 07 if everything went smoothly.
Anway, this entry is suppose to write about my birthday. Hmm..Actually nothing much to write as i don't like to celebrate my birthday. Friends ask me before why i don't like the idea to celebrate my birthday. I will usually tell them that because my mum told me that I should not celebrate because it is the most painful day in her life when I was young.Haha.Labour pain. But actually the real reason is I don't like the feeling when suddenly everyone attention is on you the moment you sit infront of the birthday cake and sing you birthday song. It make me want to dig a hole and hide inside. I also don't know why i feel that way. Maybe is because usually people also don't really notice me in their daily life. But only on that day for that few minutes will people actually focus their attention on me. Thus, i am not use to all that attention. I will still prefer hiding behind in the shadow where i feel more safe there. Talking about sense of security huh?..haha
Anyway, I did still cut cakes on birthday. I did it once on the 16th June when my collegues organise a farewell outing for our intern, Meishan last day in the company and also to celebrate in advance for another collegues, Sharon birthday which is on the 19th June. So we bought a cake and head for the KTV after our dinner. So when Kwong Yee ask to pose for photo infront of the cake after Meishan and Sharon's turn, i was actually quite surprise because i thought know one know my birthday is coming also and i don;t remember telling anyone my birthday.Maybe I had but I forgot liao.Haha. So paiseh.
The second cake that i cut was from my uncle and his wife. They bought me this very nice cake and I like it alot. I also got presents from all my aunties and sisters and Primus, my sister boyfriend. They had combined money to buy 2 t-shirts, 1 jean, 1 cargo pant and a bermude from Smauel and Kelvin (is it spell this way?) for me. I like the design they choose. But the bad news is because i had grown too fat recently, the jean and pant don't fit very well. I can't even button up the jean and the pant is too tight on my thigh area and too short. The bermude fix well except that it is abit short. So I had arranged to go back with my sisters to the shop and do a one to one exchange. In the end, there is no cargo pant that is long enough for me. Thus, i left the shop with 2 jeans instead and the bermude and one more t-shirt because we had balance of the money after the exchange. In the end, I treated my family to dinner twice. Think I still own my aunties and uncles a treat for their present. My mum and dad give me a $50 bucks red packets as usual. My friends also give me a $50 Adiddas voucher which I ahd yet to spent because I had not saw any thing I like yet.
I also just received my performance bonus during my last pay day. Got 1 month leh. I thought will be less than that because I was graded quite bad by the management. There is also a increment of pay by $30. Not much but better than nothing. But somehow I still feel something missing. I feel hollow inside. Maybe this is not what I want. Maybe this is not the type of life I want. What I want I also don't know. Maybe I am not suitable for this job. Maybe I am just bore with the routine work here.
Actually heard quite a few things about me recently. Don't feel quite good about it. Abit hurt actually. Actually should have guess that is the stituation long time ago. Maybe I am just not attentive to my surrounding. Maybe I am just stupid.. Maybe maybe maybe...I said alot of "maybe" today. But there is no use to say so many maybe. There is no answer eventually unless I open up and ask for answer directly. But I don't think I will like the answer anyway. Feel like hiding myself now and make sure no one find me. Just like what a cancerian will do, hide when it feels endanger........
Anway, this entry is suppose to write about my birthday. Hmm..Actually nothing much to write as i don't like to celebrate my birthday. Friends ask me before why i don't like the idea to celebrate my birthday. I will usually tell them that because my mum told me that I should not celebrate because it is the most painful day in her life when I was young.Haha.Labour pain. But actually the real reason is I don't like the feeling when suddenly everyone attention is on you the moment you sit infront of the birthday cake and sing you birthday song. It make me want to dig a hole and hide inside. I also don't know why i feel that way. Maybe is because usually people also don't really notice me in their daily life. But only on that day for that few minutes will people actually focus their attention on me. Thus, i am not use to all that attention. I will still prefer hiding behind in the shadow where i feel more safe there. Talking about sense of security huh?..haha
Anyway, I did still cut cakes on birthday. I did it once on the 16th June when my collegues organise a farewell outing for our intern, Meishan last day in the company and also to celebrate in advance for another collegues, Sharon birthday which is on the 19th June. So we bought a cake and head for the KTV after our dinner. So when Kwong Yee ask to pose for photo infront of the cake after Meishan and Sharon's turn, i was actually quite surprise because i thought know one know my birthday is coming also and i don;t remember telling anyone my birthday.Maybe I had but I forgot liao.Haha. So paiseh.
The second cake that i cut was from my uncle and his wife. They bought me this very nice cake and I like it alot. I also got presents from all my aunties and sisters and Primus, my sister boyfriend. They had combined money to buy 2 t-shirts, 1 jean, 1 cargo pant and a bermude from Smauel and Kelvin (is it spell this way?) for me. I like the design they choose. But the bad news is because i had grown too fat recently, the jean and pant don't fit very well. I can't even button up the jean and the pant is too tight on my thigh area and too short. The bermude fix well except that it is abit short. So I had arranged to go back with my sisters to the shop and do a one to one exchange. In the end, there is no cargo pant that is long enough for me. Thus, i left the shop with 2 jeans instead and the bermude and one more t-shirt because we had balance of the money after the exchange. In the end, I treated my family to dinner twice. Think I still own my aunties and uncles a treat for their present. My mum and dad give me a $50 bucks red packets as usual. My friends also give me a $50 Adiddas voucher which I ahd yet to spent because I had not saw any thing I like yet.
I also just received my performance bonus during my last pay day. Got 1 month leh. I thought will be less than that because I was graded quite bad by the management. There is also a increment of pay by $30. Not much but better than nothing. But somehow I still feel something missing. I feel hollow inside. Maybe this is not what I want. Maybe this is not the type of life I want. What I want I also don't know. Maybe I am not suitable for this job. Maybe I am just bore with the routine work here.
Actually heard quite a few things about me recently. Don't feel quite good about it. Abit hurt actually. Actually should have guess that is the stituation long time ago. Maybe I am just not attentive to my surrounding. Maybe I am just stupid.. Maybe maybe maybe...I said alot of "maybe" today. But there is no use to say so many maybe. There is no answer eventually unless I open up and ask for answer directly. But I don't think I will like the answer anyway. Feel like hiding myself now and make sure no one find me. Just like what a cancerian will do, hide when it feels endanger........
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